Sunday, January 31, 2010
The gamble
last year started preparing for CAT. Took preparations from TIME. My mom was sceptical in making that investment and I had to put all my not so good luck at stake and somehow made her give me the money. Days, weeks and months passed by with the declining aimcat percentiles I slowly started giving up. I started fooling around and blew away all the chances of doing well. Just turned into a glib liar while answering mom's n no. of questions day in and day out. how is it going? will you make it this time? dont feel you are that serious!! what do you intend to do?? planning to waste all the m0ney!! was stressed throughout!! my heart was thrumping hard always , something kept on haunting me. It felt like an omen is awaiting at my door step. Then I took CAT, have no idea how was it! as in bad or very bad..I took tiss also...results are out didnt qualify...sigh!! Took Xat even...got a percentile which most of the xat takers got..so dint have any chance to get any calls..my heart pounded hard...the college forms all I had bought were a waste!! I was in a complete soup. The gamble I played was over . There were sharp lances under my feet. Neither could I walk over them nor could I throw them away. The pain was destined for me. I had to endure it!! I dont know whats next! Dont know where I forgot all my zeal!!
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dont be a pessimisst..sure the CAT score is going to silence ur critics...like i managed to do a little bit..by getting in TCS...
ReplyDeleteAs I have already said before, if u have a dream, go achieve it. Just don't compromise. One day, when you'll feel that u no longer have that hunger, the passion to achieve your dream, then only stop chasing it. You know my case. But will I stop ? Hell no!! What's life without a little struggle ? :)
ReplyDeleteI too have felt the same way many a time...But then I have looked up to my idols,be it in sports or in Bollywood or other walks of life..each one of them has gone through a lot of pain at some point in their life(Dada had to wait 6 long years to stage an international comeback :-))...they are now at enviable positions!!
ReplyDeleteGood times would come!